Sunday, the lazy day

Today was just that, a very lazy day. It got chilly today and I haven't gone out all day. Even giving up on the evening walk with my boyfriend and Deuce.

I mediated again - good for me. Maybe it was easier, but it sure isn't easy yet.

Tomorrow is Monday, my favorite day at work. I am pretty much by myself. I take my music that I put on my external drive (finally all of it is transferred), over 2,500 songs, and listen to whatever I want, very cool.

Not too much to blog about, I am working on a story I started a while ago. I wrote part 1 of it months ago and now am going to work on it some more. I haven't started to look at my Vegas journals yet, but will soon.

I need to finish things that I start. I do have a bad habit of starting something then I let it fall by the wayside. I am getting better at that for sure I know. My meditation and blog is proof of that. And that does make me feel like I am empowering myself. I am being true to myself. We all lie to yourselves one way or another and that is something I am stopping.

We tell ourselves that all is well, that we are happy with the way things are. I think most of us can tell ourselves, that is a lie. There is always something that can be improved upon. For a lucky few it may not be much. For us others, there is plenty of work to be done. I tried for a long time to tell myself that everything was alright, I could handle how things were going on in my life. Now I know I was totally lying to myself. Since I have started on my mission of empowerment, I can feel the change within myself. I am calmer, most of the time, and more at ease with where my relationship is. It, like myself, needs work and with my boyfriend's reassurance I feel that changes will be made - for the better. I find that if I am patient with both him and I, I can handle that it will take time. You know the saying 'Rome wasn't built in a day'. I just wish I could find out how long it took. Then maybe I'd know how long this mission will be, but I know also - deep down - that this mission will never be over. I will never be perfect (no one can be) and I have to learn from my mistakes to go forward. That is what reincarnation is all about. If I mess up too much in this life, I will have another chance next time around. But let's all hope that is many, many years down the road.