Monday, Monday

I swear everytime I say that I hear the Mama's and Papa's song. Too funny, specially since that is just about the only line I know.

Today is going fine. Slow, but that's okay don't want Mondays too crazy.

I was thinking of what I put in my blog yesterday, about lying to oneself. Sometimes it is inevitable. But maybe then it isn't really lying, maybe it is a method for coping. We have to tell ourselves things to help us adjust and then work on what needs to be worked on.

I know, in my relationship, I have no control over my boyfriend, in how he thinks and how he wants to conduct his life. I know what part I want to be in his life, but it is up to him in the long run what part I have. I can tell him my thoughts and dreams and feelings, but how he handles them is all him.

That is why I now know that I have to follow my own path. Empower myself. And do as they say - Lead by example. I can put out good vibes and show good habits and trust and love in myself and hope that others will see it and like that I am a happy and fulfilled person (when I get there) and maybe even ask me how it happened for me.

I will then have this blog to look back on so I can see the path I took to get where I want to be. And my journals. I am being honest in this blog, but still there are some things that just don't need to be broadcast about. That is why having both are important.

When we write down our thoughts and feelings and get them out of us, I find that it helps me a great deal. I can take some of the emotion out of them and just read the words. Then I sometimes find that what I was feeling was maybe a bit overboard. And then the next time that type of emotion comes boiling up I can stop it and look at it for what it is. Too much. So I have accomplished something, I have learned something.

I was reading a article on Yahoo about relationships. It had a great technique I am going to try. It said the next time your partner is pissing you off, take 10 seconds to step back and try and realize what it is that is going on with them, and if that doesn't work, take the 10 seconds and think of a moment when all was good and reflect and remember that, remember why you love that person. It should take the edge off so things don't escalate into a bigger and really unnecessary issue or maybe even an argument.

Peace between people is so important, how can we hope to achieve peace in our world, if we can't even achieve peace with our partner?