But I had a good reason, I was having a great day with a friend. I am keeping true to myself and doing more things with friends. She and I got my ears pierced with a second hole. I don't know why I waited so long to do it, it took maybe 30 seconds. Then we grocery shopped and came home and I made dinner for her and I and my boyfriend. Then we watched a movie. It was really an enjoyable day and it made me feel really good.
I didn't meditate this morning. I went to bed late so I flaked out on the meditation. But I will get back to it tomorrow. I have a book, that I haven't read yet, but will look at tonight, to see if it has any pointers to get more focused in my meditation.
I must be doing something right, my boyfriend said I look and act 10 years younger. I am feeling good. I have figured out that being empowered isn't just what I do but what I feel about myself and how I act. I am not perfect yet, of course not, but I am improving. I still get a bit bitchy and snippy but I bet Buddhist monks don't attain Zen in just over a week and they are so much more serious at it than I am. I need to start getting a bit more serious though. I need to read my meditation books and pick, from there, what points I think will help. I have about 4 more books at the library and a CD. If I can't get a program designed for myself from all that, then I am hopeless. But I know I'm not hopeless.
My boyfriend and I had a pretty good day, we went out to breakfast and dog toy and food shopping and got some new clothes. Then we walked the dog after his dinner. I am trying so hard to keep up with my schedule. I know not only does the exercise help with so many things, but the time with my boyfriend is beneficial.
I did have a bit of a breakdown today. My boyfriend and I were in the bedroom and I was getting ready for my shower and he asked for a hug. I am sorry to say that we don't do that enough. And I started to cry, I miss him so much. Yes we live in the same place and are together a lot of the time, but we haven't connected emotionally, except for anger, in a while. I explained to him why I was crying and he said that he knows things will get better. I am hoping for sooner rather than later.
In my shopping yesterday I splurged and got myself some Victoria Secrets lotion. Amber Musk. I've wore it a while ago and I've decided that I am going to start wearing it again, it not only makes my skin soft but I smell good too. Good thing my boyfriend likes the fragrance. Another step toward my empowerment, taking care of my body. Maybe I am not eating perfect yet, but I have incorporated some exercise and that is a start.
In rereading my 7 Steps to Empowerment I just read that I should take on just a bit more than I am comfortable with. Okay, how do I do that? I am pretty comfortable with what I am doing, and I do feel I am making baby steps progress. Now it is time to add a touch more to my schedule. I will think on that tonight and see what I can come up with. Let's get that bigger bite!
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