Changes in who we are

I figured out a long while ago that I wasn't entirely happy with who I was, yet I did nothing about it. I have come to realize that it all happens in good time. When the cosmos says it should happen, not always when we want it. I have found out not only do we have to want to, but we have to be receptive also. We have to be ready to receive the lessons that are coming our way. I feel I have reached that time within myself. That is why writing this blog everyday and either meditating or studying meditating each day is coming very easily to me.

Yet sometimes change comes and you don't even realize it is happening. I'll call that the 'Cosmic Trick' as my boyfriend would. And it has happened to him. When I first met my boyfriend he was a 'loner' and truly felt inside that he neither wanted nor needed anyone 'special' in his life. Well it is seven years later and not only does he have a full-time woman in his life - me! he now has a dog (and thinking on a second). He hasn't totally accepted this change in his life, I can see he is still fighting it a bit. But as they say - in good time. In his own good time he will look at us as the gifts he is entitled to and truly deserves.

This is just an example of how things change with us as human beings. We are so certain of one thing for so long and then one day you take a look and POW its all so different from what you thought. The Powers that Be have a very unusual way of managing our lives. When we are busy planning and living then all of a sudden Life happens. We have to learn to accept those gifts, and usually they are gifts. I find when you fight against them then those gifts seem like problems and issues. But once you stop fighting them and accept them in the manner of which they are meant, you see them as the gifts they are. I can't list what gifts you will get, that is as varied as the colors on earth. Each individual will get their own gifts, tailored made just for them.

I am learning to accept the gifts that are coming my way and working to use them to my advantage. My realtionship was getting rocky there for a bit, but I can look back now and see why. I was fighting what was happening, instead of accepting it and learning from it and adapting to it. Now that I have accepted it I can see things smoothing out. What a relief. My boyfriend is my forever love and I don't want either one of us to lose this gift of love. A very rare commodity, indeed. In my past when things got tough, I got going.

A part of me says 'not a very mature way to handle things' but then it did lead me to here and here is very good. Again, prime example of the Powers that Be and their guidance. I think if we look back and we take the lessons from the past and then look forward and move on things work out the way they are supposed to. We have a wonderful chance of being all we are supposed to be and maybe passing that knowledge onto others so they can feel fulfilled and complete too.

I'm not saying I'm there yet, geez, its only been two weeks. But I can honestly say I am seeing and feeling a difference inside of myself. And I am hoping others can see it on my outside.