How do I get what I want?

Now comes the - I was going to say hard, but you know I've changed my mind. Let's say - Now comes the fun part. What is life if you can't make it an adventure? Yeah, I could say its going to be hard but I won't let it be. Life is too short and if I have any say I'm going to make it fun. And I do have a say because it is my life.

Okay, my goal is acceptance of what is coming to me. I am going to go through my days with my whole being open. And my first act to help me become more open is to start meditating. I have 5 days a week where Will walks Deuce in the morning for at least half an hour. Instead of sleeping in, I will put in a mediation CD and start. And as usual I have gone to the World Wide Web and found tips on how to meditate. I know myself and I will have to start simple and slow. If I try too hard to do too much, I'll set myself up for faliure and that is not an option.

I finished Many Lives, Many Masters last night and boy did I come out with some profound statements that the author, Dr. Brian Weiss, makes. I'm not going to list them all here today, but one really struck hard and I believe it deserves repeating. "Without action the concept will wither and fade." That makes so much sense, but so many fail to follow it. Like New Year's resolutions, we all say what we plan for that year and by January 3, its all dust in the wind. Lip service without the behavior has no value. (Dr. Weiss again)

I am serious about changing my life and empowering myself. So action will be first on my list of things to do for each day. It doesn't have to be a great big action, just a movement in the right direction.

Still looking for a dance class, I don't want to spend hundreds of dollars. A part of me wants to say that it isn't worth it. But that is a negative thing. I should say that I just don't want to spend that much money on that item right now. Whatever makes me happy and puts me in the right direction is worth it. And no that doesn't mean I get whatever I want whenever I want it. It means that if it is prudent and productive and will become an asset, then it is worth consideration.

Also important is to put a shout out to all my friends and loved ones that are backing me up. Making changes is hard no matter what, but alone I believe they would be impossible. I have a good support group and I just want to say thank you to them. You all know who you are. As I know I am in your hearts, please know that you are in mine also.